Hi all, I thought I’d do a little update as I haven’t been blogging as much as I’d like to but I do have a good excuse 🙂 As most of you know I welcomed my third child late last month. For now we’ll call her Glitterbaba as I don’t feel comfortable yet naming my kids on the blog. Glitterbaba is my second daughter and we are thrilled to finally have her here! I can’t believe I’m mama to three children now! Wow! Feels crazy saying that but I wouldn’t have it any other way. I live for my kids. I honestly believe I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for them.
So as well as being busy and on a high, truth be told, I was also feeling a little bit down or had the ‘baby blues’ as they call it for a few days. My anxiety was so bad, I was scared and worrying over silly little things and had myself in such a state, I was literally in a tizzy with my worries, fears & guilt. I though my brain would never calm down.
My eldest daughter and first-born turned 7 a few days ago so that also had me quite emotional. It was like a ‘how did that happen’ feeling, it feels like yesterday that she was once as small as Glitterbaba and it made me sad that so much has changed in the past 7 years, some of them years have been the worst of my life and I feel I didn’t always get to enjoy or appreciate my kids while going through some tough times. It made me sad and feeling like I just wanted time to stop time for a few days so I could gather my thoughts…..but we can’t…so right now I’m just trying to enjoy each day as much as possible and make good memories.
Glitterbaba is 2 weeks old tomorrow and thankfully I’m feeling a lot better and back to my normal (ok, a little crazy) self 😛 For anyone due a baby or if you’ve just had your bundle of joy…just be aware that the baby blues are completely normal and will pass.The post pregnancy ‘hormone crash’ is seriously under estimated, it really can make you feel like you are losing your mind!! Make sure to tell your family/friends/partner how you are feeling and just keep an eye on it. I was very worried I was getting a bad relapse of my depression so I made my nurse aware of how I was feeling too and she was very supportive and reassuring.
Anyway that’s all I wanted to write, just to say hi, all is well and *soppy alert* I’ll be blogging in between kisses and cuddles with my family. Thanks again also for all the well wishes from everyone!